Unsaid Thoughts

 Why Do You Look At Me Like That? By: Carmen Cooper   You laughed at me as I laughed at myself. I admire your smile because I haven't had one in a while That came naturally. Although I light up the room with the creases of my mouth curled My lips like a crescent moon Waiting for the right person to notice me Like he did He is far away Looking at my picture on the phone screen I want him to be standing where you are I don't like distance. I don't cope well with that I miss his touch The visual aid I am looking at on my phone screen I am so mad So upset that he is not you You lust after me I confess, I do not like you one bit You have done nothing to me You just look at me I look back and forth From the floor to you the table Taking a peek at you Why don't you just close your eyes and stop touching me Trying to comfort me I don't like you I don't hate you But I hate the affection you show towards me. L...

Untitled By: Carmen Cooper I am going to fall again. I feel it. The process has already begun. My stomach hurts. That little piece of pain that grows inside of me.  I feel like crying again. As soon as you touched me. I felt I could not escape from the pain, the gain I will not have from this. Mirrors do tell the truth, I thought as I swipe my lipstick across the crescent of my lips. Do a little dance. My heart beats. But why do I forget? I know what you did. How you forgot. I curse the day I met you because you trapped me. Pulled me so close, such a tight grip on me. I cannot break the chains. But yet there are no chains. I feel the want and lust yearning to be released. I feel I want to act out on it. To release it, let it take over me. But. I feel that I do not trust you. You have very beautiful brown eyes that put me in a trance. That blinds me sometimes. As you hold me with your gaze. Wrap your arms around me, Pull me closer, Brush yo...

"Pain demands to be felt." John Green, The Fault In Our Stars

In The Other Room By: Carmen Cooper  The day I really saw her I had no emotions. I didn't show any. I smiled nodded and listened to the voices being exchanged in the other room. She was so glad to see him (not me) and happy all too glad to be back. I could see through the key hole as he glanced back, There was a space in his heart that I did not have the pieces for. Only the little package bundled up had the remedy. I had to do something but what? I am so scared! So mortified. My emotions flooded me , made my heart thump so hard I nearly suffocated from the beat of it. Which made it hard to breathe which made it hard to see what was happening in the other room. I sat in the bathtub. I am confused. My question was not why but how? HOW! After all this time... Now? How does one gain so much knowledge in a blink of an eye? Then came the whys and the sighs, rolling of my eyes and the water that I drank while laying in water. "how the hell does a broken heart get back together when ...

Don't get attached to men because before you know it, you might not  want to do anything without him, things will not be fun without him. You might develop this mentality that you cannot live without him and blow off your friends and schedule every plan you have around him, trust me lean to be by yourself and love being by yourself. Just because you are alone doesn't mean you are lonely.

Pink and White Lights By: Carmen Cooper I was asleep when it all happened  The dark skies and glittering stars My soft bed sheets held me in its arms Then a flash of white then pink colours, glowed in my dreams Taking away every other colour She began to speak "I am gonna you bend and break to try to get rid of me, but what you can't see you dunno whatever is happening you can deny, pink and white I will let you bleed I am telling the truth, why can't you see? This competition is done. Forget what you thought, my arms are wrapped around his neck with my hands holding his heart He wrapped around my fingers and strung like a puppet." I then said, "This the end this is it Fuck your wanna have fairytales because he is my prince I hate you, disappear with your voo doo dolls but with my black pearls wrapped around your neck, all out of reach, your hide in the shadows but you can't see that I can see right through you. Your truthful li...

This is between the other she, he, and  me By: Carmen Cooper I can't tell you a secret when you can't keep I couldn't trust her  I don't know why you never tell me anything, I want to know What the hell is going on? Nothing. She lied. I do not lie. We are not the same You're blind. Shut up. No you,. Stupid. Look who is talking. She, she, and she You, you you! Stop talking! Leave me alone. Ok. Bye. I'm sorry, me too You're different. I love you.

Black Roses and Forget Me Nots   By: Carmen Cooper There you are on the tree The softest touch that ever touched Sweet whispers and bitter memories I can’t forget you Even when I try Burning fire, a hole in my heart Black roses and forget me nots I owe you for the happiness You owe me for all the sadness This picture of you burns my skin I can’t look your way because my tears won’t go away We held hands, celebrated your birthday on the 31st You couldn’t take no more You left to get rid of the pain You told me nothing Just kept it in A secret We were the secret Hiding behind close doors, under the covers, in the car, in the cub bards, the attic and shed, spider webs and mice abandoned barns   You wrapped me up in your arms held me close, said this was forever Only time will know It’s all run out The last smile, the last of the sunshine Tomb stones and red velvet satin A black coffin with silver linings Chocolate ...

Cupid by Girl's Day ! I love this song! <3 <3 I'm your cupid My boy I love you! Jjaritaejin gibuningeol Ireon neukkim cheoeumingeol Mabeobe geollin geot gata Neol bol ttaemyeon Kongdakkongdak seolleneun mam Meoributeo balkkeutkkaji Niga neomu johajingeol Nado mollae Josimseureopge dagagallaeyo Oh! I'm your sweety girl Nal anajwo Josimseureopge yaegihallaeyo Oh! I'm your lovely girl Ni pume angin chae Hello Hello you shiny boy! Kyupiteu hwasari Nae maeume kok deureowa Neoreul bomyeon nan tteollyeowa Hello Hello you shiny boy! Dalkomhan useumi Nae maeume ssok deureowa Haru jongil nan tteollyeowa You got my heart! My love My love My love My boy x3 (Rap) Dugeundugeun gaseum tteollyeo ni eokkaee gidaeeo Come on boy You're my boy Love my boy My love My love (My boy) Josimseureopge dagagallaeyo Oh! I'm your sweety girl Oh! I'm your sweety girl Nal anajwo Josimseureopge yaegihallaeyo Oh! I'm your lovely girl ...

Farewell. By: Carmen Cooper I started as nothing A fire started inside of me burning me like I am My mother took her soft, cool, hard hands Tenderly breaking me and molding me in the shape of a tiny her Alas, I was me straying off arguing with her You can’t change who I am mom! My aunt listened to me but we all know she can’t keep secrets She whispered behind closed doors with cracks and everything echoes, you can hear what was being said while the shower, a stereo, and an action movie played in the background There are rules, chores to be taken care of Bruises that heal later We have to be a Christian family, a family that prays together stays together, my grandmother hissed at me because I told her Christianity was corrupted and overrated You are just confused sweetie we all sometimes stray away from our paths Where you fell down just to be picked up and screaming was normal Let’s all talk over each other because no one is right From the shut up...