Why Do You Look At Me Like That?
By: Carmen Cooper
 
You laughed at me as I laughed at myself.
I admire your smile because I haven't had one in a while
That came naturally.
Although I light up the room with the creases of my mouth curled
My lips like a crescent moon
Waiting for the right person to notice me
Like he did
He is far away
Looking at my picture on the phone screen
I want him to be standing where you are
I don't like distance.
I don't cope well with that
I miss his touch
The visual aid I am looking at on my phone screen
I am so mad
So upset that he is not you
You lust after me
I confess, I do not like you one bit
You have done nothing to me
You just look at me
I look back and forth
From the floor to you the table
Taking a peek at you
Why don't you just close your eyes and stop touching me
Trying to comfort me
I don't like you
I don't hate you
But I hate the affection you show towards me.
Leave me alone, I don't want to be friends.
But you at me like that
And it makes it hard for me to tear away my stare
The glossy gaze in my eyes
Your pupils wide and big as if I was your high
Although, I just threw you into withdrawal 
You have to have a hit, just one more
But I might kill you, your one more could be your last
My grey heart, my shllowness
I don't like you!
But I don't hate you.
I will never love you, or hold your hand.
I don't want to be around you or be your friend.
I only want him.
You know that.
So why are you still looking at me that way?

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