In the Hollows of my Mind
By: Carmen Cooper

The window of my mind opens to a world of dreams
A doorway that I would know to keep shut but I keep opening it
As much as I want to understand the happening of now
The weight of me can’t be held
My unbalance with the outside is not equal
I am confused

The paths that are made out to be right go left
Everything is foreign
Nothing makes sense
In my mind the shadows don’t stand over me
I tower above the lands and present myself

The truth is pages don’t turn like that
The passage way leads else where
Reality bites back in lust
You only want your name to be on the entry list
The deep puzzles of the labyrinth twist the ending game
There are no instructions for how to be
The inner circle I force my way
Bleeding the lies and paying for them

Society strings me like a puppet
I follow quietly with one foot dragging
The invisible hand I have not yet slapped away
Holds me upright
The hollow of my heart is a crossword
The paths it wants to follow suffocates me

The long prospective of infinite possibilities
Keeps me guessing
Symbolic gestures that will eventually mean something
                                                                                          
What I see in the broken images of my once vivid memory
Pieces of faint illustrations competing for my interest
Black and white contrasts of fallen dreams
Darkness trying to befriend me
Reality no longer exist
Scientific reasoning has no relevance
The waiting and not saying
Anticipating and concentrating, for what?
What am I really trying to say?

These dead cells that are thriving to come back to life
Swimming around making hasty decisions
Are giving up because nothing makes sense
The life that I’m living
The false air I am breathing only makes matters worse
For that the being I am trying to be can no longer see what is in front of her
Reincarnation is only a dream
The biology of life it seems
The starting point of forgiveness and moving on
The warm embrace I hunger for

Inside my dark mind I lie asleep
Waiting for the next time I will see my eyes open
But all I can do is dream
My sweet escapes from realty
The agony and the pain that inspires me to be better but from this point I have yet to become
I do not understand the world that my mind creates
I long for more answers




Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

Image
Opretta Cosply- Seeing this reminds of the time I first cosplayed: It was Halloween and I was aware of what Cosplay was but I was still new to how experimental you could be with your outfit so I fashioned my outfit from store bought clothes and things I already owned. I was the type of person who didn't want to be to far-fetched but I still wanted it to look like the character I was portraying but I didn't want it to be over the top. So it ended looking something similar to this. Simple but still what the character looks like.
Read more
Part three of A Gift From Venus Going Home I slid back in front of my computer. My goal was to finish my introduction to my essay before lunch. I plugged in my headphones and turned on Youtube, trying to tune out the loud irrelevant thoughts in my head, but unfortunately the music from my favourite songs was in favour of dis tracting me instead of helping me focus. Soon the bell rang and lunch was in session, I sighed and logged off my computer. Okay, so when I get home, my goal is to finish my introduction to my essay. I got off the bus with my friend Brady, the ice on the sidewalk was shining from the light in the sky or the sun making an effort to peep out from behind the clouds. I jumped on top of a sheet of ice and slid down the sidewalk. Brady, was behind me, my best friend who I had adopted as my brother, we automatically connected and became friends after one conversation. Brady was a splitting image of me only younger and a boy. We would laugh together and stop...
Read more
 A song by Avril Lavigne that I think describes the deep thoughts you may feel about about another person and how hard it can be to tell them: I’m tugging at my hair I’m pulling at my clothes I’m trying to keep my cool I know it shows I’m staring at my feet My cheeks are turning red I’m searching for the words inside my head [Pre-Chorus] (Cause) I’m feeling nervous Trying to be so perfect Cause I know you’re worth it You’re worth it Yeah [Chorus] If I could say what I want to say I'd say I wanna blow you... away Be with you every night Am I squeezing you too tight If I could say what I want to see I want to see you go down On one knee Marry me today Guess, I’m wishing my life away With these things I’ll never say It don’t do me any good It’s just a waste of time What use is it to you What’s on my mind If it ain’t coming out We’re not going anywhere So why can’t I just tell you that I care [Pre-Chorus] [Chorus] What’s wrong with my tongue Th...
Read more